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  • Snowed In on a Sunday: Expectancy, Stillness, and the Grace of Pausing

    After the Storm 2026

    There is something sacred about a Sunday when North Carolina snow is expected. Not the dramatic, blizzard kindโ€” but the kind that slows the roads, quiets the neighborhood, and gently insists: stay in.

    The kind that turns errands into cancellations and plans into permission. For me, Snow in NC carries expectancy. We watch the sky. We check the forecast more than once. We listen for the hush that comes right before it begins.

    And when it finally falls, everything feels mutedโ€” as if the world itself is holding its breath.

    Being snowed in on a Sunday feels different. Itโ€™s not confinement; itโ€™s an invitation. To pause without explanation. To rest without productivity attached. To be still without feeling behind.

    The snow does what Sundays were always meant to doโ€” slow us enough to notice ourselves again. Thereโ€™s no rushing out the door. No pressure to make the most of the day.

    Just warm rooms, familiar quiet, and the gentle rhythm of time stretching instead of tightening.

    In the stillness, expectancy shifts. Itโ€™s no longer about whatโ€™s coming nextโ€” but about whatโ€™s already here.

    What weโ€™ve been carrying. What weโ€™ve been ignoring. What our bodies and spirits have been asking for all along. Snow has a way of leveling everything. Covering the noise. Softening the edges.

    Reminding us that rest is not lazinessโ€”

    itโ€™s alignment. And maybe thatโ€™s the gift of being snowed in on a Sunday: the realization that pausing is not a detour from life, but a return to it.

    A reminder that God often speaks in the quiet.

    That clarity doesnโ€™t always arrive with movement. That some seasons require us to stop long enough to feel whatโ€™s true.

    So today, let the snow fall. Let the world wait. Let your nervous system settle. Let Sunday be Sunday again.

    There is grace in the pause. There is wisdom in the stillness. There is expectancy even here. Especially here. ๐ŸŒฟโ„๏ธ๐ŸŒฟ

    Remain Brave,

    Michelle

    Closing Reflection

    As the snow settles and the world grows quiet,

    ask yourselfโ€”

    What am I being invited to pause from right now?And what part of me has been waiting for this stillness to finally speak?

    You donโ€™t have to rush the answer. Let it rise slowly, like snowfallโ€” unannounced, unforced, enough.

    Soft Scripture

    โ€œIn peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.โ€ ~Psalm 4:8

    ยฉ๏ธIntimately Worded, Michelle.

  • The nighttime sniffling, sneezing, coughingโ€ฆ

    The nighttime sniffling, sneezing, coughingโ€ฆ

    I am feeling much better after a severe bout with a cold and congestion that would not let loose for about ten days.

    Comforts of Home

    I think Iโ€™ve finally returned to the land of the livingโ€ฆ slowly, gently, gratefully. Today I felt the slightest spark to read, to write, to journal, to work a puzzleโ€”little things I had planned for this holiday break before my body reminded me it had other intentions. ๐Ÿค•

    But Sundays? #Sundays remain the best.

    This morning I let myself sleep in. No alarms, no rushing. Just rest.

    Then a long, warm showerโ€”๐Ÿ’•

    My full face regimenโ€”๐Ÿ’•

    Moisturized from neck to toesโ€”๐Ÿ’•

    H2O flowing through this human systemโ€”๐Ÿ’•

    Brushed my locs and massaged my scalpโ€”๐Ÿ’•

    I even put on my pearl earrings. I miss my mom terribly. (Her name is Pearl.) ๐ŸŒฟ

    And when I exhaledโ€ฆ a deep sigh moved through me like a small resurrection. My appetite still isnโ€™t back, but Iโ€™ll take these little returns. These tiny renewals.

    Iโ€™m sipping hot teaโ€”no coffee for almost two weeks now. Outside, itโ€™s raining, that soft hush that makes the world feel like itโ€™s whispering. With my youngest two at work, itโ€™s just Big Koda and me in this quiet house.

    Sundays are when I sage and soulfully reset. When I choose to be here, fully, even if โ€œhereโ€ feels tender and strange. My weekly writingโ€”this slow, intentional ritualโ€”has a way of improving my emotional disposition. It lets me name the weight of the world without being crushed beneath it.

    I donโ€™t have answers to any of it. I havenโ€™t made sense of much of anything lately. But I am releasing the heavinessโ€”the chaotic energy that keeps trying to settle in my spirit.

    Today Iโ€™m still moving slowly and softly. And that feels holy enough.

    Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well.” ~3 John 1:2

    Keep shining, Beautiful Ones. Keep shining. 

    Intimately Worded,

    Michelle

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  • Sundayโ€™s Writing

    Sundayโ€™s Writing

    #SuperSundays: I used a gift card I won through a health app and treated myself to Starbucks this morning. I walked in, minding my business, and they handed me a free Red Cup for being a regular coffee consumer. A small, unexpected kindness. A wink from God. #WinWin ๐Ÿค“

    The Tribeโ€ฆ they were all here this weekend.

    โ€ข Autumn fussed about my eatingโ€”and my not eatingโ€”habits. ๐Ÿฅฐ A full Tillman. When she โ€œmomsโ€ me, I hear Pearlie Mae, Val, and Keyna speaking through her. Healing comes full circle when our children carry the tone of the women who shaped us.

    โ€ข Brutus texted a whole list of demandsโ€ฆ while at work. ๐Ÿง๐Ÿคท๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ

    โ€ข Darius seeking Umi duties. ๐Ÿฅฐ His way of staying close.

    โ€ข Damien, the big brother who shows upโ€”not loudly, but faithfully. ๐Ÿ’› His presence always lifts me.

    Damien and I spent Saturday togetherโ€”shopping, movies, dinner. I drove him around for a bit. We got home and he immediately started dressing to go out again. I fussed because trulyโ€ฆ he only comes to see his barber and his brother.

    Him: โ€œIโ€™ve been with you all day.โ€

    ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿง๐Ÿ™„

    #FirstBornJiltsTheHeart

    Thereโ€™s a sacred sweetness in this stage of lifeโ€”grown children finding their own paths but still circling back home in their unique ways. Their presence reminds me that love doesnโ€™t leave; it shifts, expands, and deepens. Even the fussing is a kind of prayer.

    Pair all of that with one spoiled pup and I feel surrounded by a living testimony of Godโ€™s goodness. ๐ŸŒฟ๐Ÿงก๐ŸŒฟ Iโ€™m leaning into these new chapters, not just gracefullyโ€”but spiritually aware.

    ๐Ÿ‚ Fall is here again. My favorite.

    NC weather gave us every season this week:

    ๐ŸŒฆ๏ธโ˜”๏ธ๐ŸŒฌ๏ธโ„๏ธโ˜€๏ธ

    But today is calm, bright, and warm in that gentle, soul-softening way.

    This morning was #CoffeeAndQuiet and #PrayersAndSage.

    A settling. A centering.

    A reminder of Psalm 46:10 โ€”

    โ€œBe still, and know that I am God.โ€

    Stillness is not the absence of movement; it is the presence of awareness. It is choosing to pause long enough to hear what your spirit has been whispering all week.

    Today, Iโ€™m reminded:

    Healing isnโ€™t optional; itโ€™s required.

    And it often begins in these small, ordinary, holy momentsโ€”

    a free cup at Starbucks,

    a child fussing in love,

    a weekend full of familiar voices,

    a quiet home after the laughter settles.

    Happy Sunday, Good People.

    Take care to take care of yourself. ๐ŸŒฟ

    Intimately worded,

    Michelle โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน

  • Falling Season, Get What You Give

    Falling Season, Get What You Give

    November Reflections: Reciprocity, Renewal, and Protecting the Heart

    Work is creeping in, in a deep wayโ€”feeling like November and the end of Fall. I know thereโ€™s still more Autumn left, even if the weather and early darkness suggest otherwise. Thereโ€™s a chill that whispers both endings and beginnings.

    For now, Iโ€™ll protect my physical body with crochet scarves and my red beanie, layers of warmth and softness that feel like care. Spiritually, Iโ€™ll protect myself with scripture, hot tea, and quietness. This combination grounds meโ€”itโ€™s a gentle ritual of self-preservation and presence.

    I will also continue to follow through with clinical encouragement and therapeutic support for my clients. I love what I practice for a living, though it often carries a great amount of heaviness. Bearing witness to othersโ€™ pain and growth is sacred workโ€”it deepens empathy but also stretches the heart thin at times. My heart feels frayed a bit lately, yet my hope is deeper and wider.

    Itโ€™s Sunday againโ€”a new month, a renewing of time. The clocks โ€œfell backโ€ in the early morning hours, giving us the illusion of more rest, more time. Yet I know how long it takes for the body and spirit to catch up with the shift. This symbolic turning reminds me: donโ€™t allow the world to cloud your intuition. Trust what you know.

    Reciprocity vs. Transactional Relationships

    In therapy and in life, we often examine the balance of giving and receivingโ€”what it means to love freely while maintaining healthy boundaries. Itโ€™s important to distinguish reciprocity from a purely transactional way of relating.

    A reciprocal relationship is rooted in goodwill, connection, and genuine care. Itโ€™s where giving becomes an act of loveโ€”not an investment expecting a return. It flows both ways, naturally and without keeping score.

    By contrast, a transactional relationship measures worth in exchanges:

    โ€œI bought you coffee, so you owe me a coffee.โ€

    In reciprocity, the heart says:

    โ€œI bought you coffee because I wanted to do something kind. I trust that youโ€™ll hold me in love and care when I need it most.โ€

    The difference may seem subtle, but emotionally and spiritually, itโ€™s profound. Reciprocity nourishes connection. Transactionality breeds comparison, resentment, and emotional distance.

    In therapy, I often remind clients that reciprocity thrives in spaces where trust and emotional safety exist. Itโ€™s a rhythm of mutual investmentโ€”where both people are free to give from overflow, not obligation.

    Love, God, and the Waiting Season

    Lately, Iโ€™ve returned to the dating appโ€”not out of desperation, but curiosity and openness. Itโ€™s a strange world to navigate with a tender heart and a discerning spirit. I find myself reflecting often on why I desire partnership and how I wish to love.

    Some conversations spark hope; others remind me how surface-level connection can be when rooted in transaction rather than reciprocity. Thereโ€™s a quiet ache in realizing how rare it is to meet someone whoโ€™s ready to love intentionallyโ€”to listen, to give without keeping score, to see beyond whatโ€™s easy.

    And yet, even as I scroll, match, and unmatch, I still believe in divine timing. I still believe that God writes love stories differentlyโ€”slowly, intentionally, with purpose and alignment. So Iโ€™m learning to wait well. To stay open, but not hurried. To protect my peace while remaining hopeful that the right heart will recognize mine.

    Spiritual Reflection, in Galatians 6:9, weโ€™re reminded: โ€œLet us not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.โ€

    This scripture grounds me as both therapist and womanโ€”someone holding space for others while still longing for her own sacred companionship.

    Even when my heart feels stretched thin, I remember that reciprocityโ€”with myself, with God, and with othersโ€”is an act of trust. A form of love that doesnโ€™t rush or demand, but rests and receives.

    As time falls back and the days grow shorter, I choose to rest, to trust what I know, and to give from loveโ€”never from depletion.

    May this November invite you, too, into warmth, rest, and a deeper understanding of how you give and receive love. And if you, like me, are waiting on God to write your love storyโ€”know that Heโ€™s still writing.

    Reflection Prompt: Where in your life do you need to trust divine timingโ€”in love, in purpose, or in the quiet in-between?

    Be brave,

    Michelle

    ยฉ๏ธIntimately Worded, Michelle

  • The Wonder of Unfolding:  On the sacred rhythm of  Time, Healing and Autumn’s quiet grace.

    The Wonder of Unfolding: On the sacred rhythm of Time, Healing and Autumn’s quiet grace.

    Sundays have a way of slowing me down enough to notice what time has been doing beneath the surface. The air is crisp, the light shifts, and even the trees seem to know when to release. I am in wonder of how time cloaked our struggles, yet time also reveals the required healing โ€” the necessary strength for us to witness the whyโ€™s. In this turning season, Iโ€™m reminded that Godโ€™s work often happens quietly, layered in moments we donโ€™t yet understand. What once felt delayed was, in truth, unfolding right on time.

    Yesterday, I attended my cousinโ€™s wedding โ€” my second cousin, though I still remember her as the little girl with big dreams and a contagious laugh. Watching her stand there, radiant in hope and grace, marrying again with such genuine love, felt like witnessing time come full circle. The ceremony was outdoors, framed by trees touched with autumn gold, the air soft with both memory and promise.

    At this age, Iโ€™m in awe of how love still finds us, how it gathers whatโ€™s been scattered by years, by loss, by change. Marriage has a way of reminding us that family expands even as it shifts โ€” that though weโ€™ve said goodbye to parents and grandparents, something sacred continues through us. Itโ€™s as if time weaves a quiet thread between what was and what is becoming, inviting us to see how love endures, how it unfolds anew.

    This morning, before I began to write, I recorded a few thoughts โ€” just me, my voice, and the quiet of Sunday. Sunday mornings have become their own kind of prayer for me. Waking up smiling, breathing easier, releasing the heaviness of the work week and the constant pulse of motherhood, I find myself able to go to God in a way that comforts me. Thereโ€™s peace in that surrender โ€” in remembering I donโ€™t have to hold everything together for the world to keep turning.

    I love my walks, especially now as the leaves start to fall and the air turns brisk. Itโ€™s where I feel time most gently โ€” not rushing, not demanding, just moving with me. Each step reminds me that unfolding doesnโ€™t require effort, only willingness. And maybe thatโ€™s what this season โ€” this life โ€” continues to teach me: that healing, love, and even time itself are part of a divine rhythm, one that never stops revealing whatโ€™s meant to be known in its own perfect moment.

    Rest in knowing that whatโ€™s meant for you is already moving toward you. Time, love, and grace are all working together in ways you canโ€™t yet see.

    Be brave,

    Michelle

    ยฉ๏ธIntimately Worded, Michelle.

  • Sundays, Early Mornings & Friendship Loss

    Journey towards Better

    Thereโ€™s something sacred about early Sundays โ€” before the world fully wakes. Itโ€™s where truth sits quietly, waiting to be named.

    I know the world is on fireโ€”

    yet what continues to amaze me is how these global flames mirror our internal ones.

    The ache, the quiet unraveling, the loss that comes not only from tragedy but from truth.

    Humanity feels lost.

    Personal and political beliefs now hold the power to alter the direction of our lives, our connections, even our sense of belonging.

    Recently, I severed a long-term friendshipโ€”

    one built on love, laughter, and shared seasons.

    It wasnโ€™t over something petty or misunderstood.

    It was because of politics.

    Not politics as in policy, but politics as in morality.

    People often underestimate the depth of their words or the weight they carry.

    What Iโ€™ve learned is this:

    if an apology begins with โ€œIโ€™m not racistโ€ but ends with unwavering support for those who harm and divideโ€”then it isnโ€™t an apology at all.

    Itโ€™s an attempt to seek comfort in the very space where harm was done.

    And Iโ€™ve decided I donโ€™t have to comfort you through the ending of our friendship.

    My heart is fragile, still healing, still learning.

    But I am also livingโ€”intentionally, fully, and with boundaries rooted in love for myself.

    I love deeply, in both length and width.

    But I will not prove that love by tolerating hate, bullying, or dismissiveness disguised as โ€œdifference of opinion.โ€

    โ€œSome endings are not betrayals of love โ€” they are affirmations of self.โ€

    Sometimes I chuckle, not out of humor, but out of disbeliefโ€”

    because people truly forget how long we have been Black and hated.

    How long weโ€™ve known the weight of racismโ€”not as theory, but as lived experience.

    I have felt its ugly claws, tasted its unyielding rage, and recognized how ignorance allows it to thrive.

    And still, on early Sunday mornings, I rise.

    I pray.

    I breathe.

    I choose peace over pretense.

    Friendship loss hurts, especially when love still lingers in memory.

    But truth has a frequency that canโ€™t be silenced, even for comfortโ€™s sake.

    Reflection for the Soul

    This Sunday, take a moment to sit with the quiet after loss.

    Friendship, even when it ends, leaves imprints of who we were โ€” and who we are becoming.

    Ask yourself: What does peace require of me now?

    Not the kind that avoids pain, but the kind that honors it, transforms it, and releases what no longer loves you back.

    May you find grace in your boundaries, rest in your truth,

    and gentleness in the parts of your heart still learning how to heal.

    Intimately worded,

    Michelle ๐ŸŒฟ

  • Octoberโ€™ing: Autumnโ€™s Season

    Octoberโ€™ing: Autumnโ€™s Season

    Navigating with Love

    The Becoming: Generational Mid-Life and the Emotional Intelligence of Self-Discovery

    It’s in the quiet, candlelit hours of GenX-ingโ€”when menopause-induced insomnia gently disrupts the nightโ€”that the deepest soul work begins. This is the new terrain of life: navigating the Empty Nest, the clinical realities of Diabetes and Menopause, and the relentless work of Single Parenting. But more than a list of challenges, this is an invitation to lean into the continuous, lifelong process of becomingโ€”the act of learning and aligning with the truest self.


    The Stirring: Reconciling Capacity and Calling

    Last Sunday, the Pastorโ€™s abrupt, almost vernacular questionโ€””You just showing up… and not using your gifts. Not nan gift, not one?!”โ€”acts as a spiritual provocation. It’s the divine equivalent of a coach calling a time-out: not an accusation, but a forceful invitation to acknowledge the potential you hold. This moment is the essence of true spiritual accountability, my own.

    This spiritual accountability, though met with an internal response “Sis tired” chuckle, remains the essence of emotional self-awareness. It tugged at my heart —to reconcile our current capacity with our inherent calling.

    My history with faith is one of reverence, where teaching Sunday School once felt like a natural flow of my spiritual gift. That gift, when a church home shifted, didn’t vanishโ€”it simply transferred its medium. It became the ministry of therapy.

    This transference illustrates a powerful clinical principle of emotional intelligence: Adaptability and the re-channeling of purpose. My “can-do” spirit, once dedicated to religious education, now finds its highest expression in professional ethicsโ€”the oath to do no harm, to embody empathy, and to remain faithful to my clients’ healing. This is the integration of selfโ€”a conscious choice where the spiritual commitment (“I’ll show up faithfully”) merges with professional standards. That growing, healing confidenceโ€”the emergence of the affirmed “I”โ€”is the sound of self-mastery in action.

    Podcast: https://renovare.org/podcasts/lifewithgod/reward-sibanda-how-to-fast


    Clinical Wisdom: Navigating the Body as a Sacred Text

    Our mid-life landscape forces us to confront the undeniable link between the physical and the emotional. As a therapist, I’m immersed in evidence-based science, theory, and methodology. Yet, the wisdom gained from navigating my own chronic illness (Diabetes) and hormonal shifts (Menopause) is a science of the self.

    The intricate dance of managing blood sugars, bone density, and muscle mass while wrestling with sweat soaked sheets is a poignant metaphor for my current developmental stage. It teaches an advanced form of self-regulation. The detailed, excruciating observationโ€”that medication absorption differs between the thigh and the stomachโ€”is a stark reminder of the precision required for body-mind integration. It hurt.

    We recognize that even when we felt we were “doing all the good things” —-in our 50s, the bodyโ€™s internal clock and genetic blueprint have the final word. This necessity for structured, consistent care isn’t a limitation; itโ€™s an essential, deep spiritual discipline. Itโ€™s the intentional practice of fasting to not neglect, ensuring our physical temple remains whole, just in a beautifully new way. This is not a space of fear, but of heightened mindfulness and self-compassion.


    The Anatomy of a Soul-Stretch: Identity and Healing

    Identity in mid-life is not a fixed point, but a perpetual soul-stretch. The silvering of hair is less about acquired wisdom and more about the simple, undeniable marker of experience. The heart will continue its rhythm of love, pain, breakage, and repair. What we learn is the heart’s untiring capacity for healing. The journey of emotional intelligence hinges on this realization: that healing is not an end state, but a regenerative process.

    For those of us cultivating solitude, the fleeting frustration of “being single still” gives way to a miraculous enhancement of self-sufficiency and internal coherence. We are not lost in the struggle, nor are we frantically searching for answers to the Unknowns of the future. The “monsters” of our pastโ€”the unresolved traumas and anxietiesโ€”are diminished because we have chosen to lean not into our own limited understanding, but into a trust that is larger than what we can currently see.

    This is the ultimate clinical insight and spiritual offering: giving up and giving in are rarely the only choices.

    Choose bigger. Choose the self you are #becoming. Faith your journey with love, practice being loving, and trust that the love you put forth will organically find its way back to you. The promise of the rainbowโ€”the assurance of soul-level connectionโ€”is for those who faithfully show up, gifts in hand, for the ongoing, beautiful work of their own becoming.

    Intimately Worded.

    Michelle ๐ŸŒฟ๐Ÿ’•

  • Finding Meaning in Stillness: You Were Made for More

    Finding Meaning in Stillness: You Were Made for More

    You Were Made for More, and You Know It

    Lately, Iโ€™ve been waking up at 4:15 a.m., not out of discipline but out of something deeperโ€”an ache, a pull, a knowing. Maybe youโ€™ve felt it too. That quiet nudge that whispers, You were made for more. Not in the loud, hustle culture kind of way, but in a way that sits in your chest, pressing down until you acknowledge it.

    March felt like a run-through, like a practice round where I was trying to catch up with myself. Days moved fast, responsibilities stacked up, and I was just going through the motions. And now, April has arrived, and I find myself waitingโ€”waiting for the weight of something real, something undeniable. The heaviness of stepping fully into what I know Iโ€™m meant to be.

    But hereโ€™s the thing about more: itโ€™s not always about doing more. Sometimes, itโ€™s about softening. Peeling back the layers of overperformance, of proving, of moving so fast you donโ€™t even feel your own life. Maybe more looks like stillness. Maybe itโ€™s the kind of work that happens in the quiet moments before the world wakes upโ€”before emails, before expectations.

    If youโ€™ve been feeling it too, this in-between space, this waiting, know that itโ€™s not empty. Itโ€™s not wasted. You are being prepared, strengthened, softened in ways you canโ€™t even see yet. So, keep waking up. Keep listening. Keep allowing yourself to move toward the life thatโ€™s been calling you. Because you were made for more. And you already know it.

  • Significant Losses; Reflection.

    #NewThings: Embracing the newness of things. Learning to let our light shine after dark times and during the difficult moments. Learning how to want the better while unlearning the hurt of our wounds. Healing is not a measurement of how good things are going in your present.

    Trust yourSelf more with each decision youโ€™ve made to be where you are. Love comes and how it flows for you is the healing process. Weโ€™re always evolvingโ€ฆour healing is a journey. Level up with grace. God is intimately intentional.

    Iโ€™m still moving within my goal word for this year: trusting mySelf. Try your best not to minimize any parts of your life. You are worthy of your workโ€”even when it is difficult.

    Growth and healing will continue to be a hard process. Grief, loss is seemingly consistent; often it brings and leaves us in places unfamiliar. Do not lose your way in fearing whatโ€™s next. Learn to be, with love.

    I am reminded of the gentleness and generosity of #God. Grief does not miss anyone. We lose our love Ones. We want something entirely different than this type of loss. Although as painful as it is, grief and healing is not about forgetfulness or any particular destination. I encourage you to see yourSelf, to allow healing into those hidden places and within your prayers. Do not minimize where you areโ€ฆyouโ€™re worthy of healing and of love. I pray your day leads you to nurturing and replenishing your soul. Youโ€™re worth of your journey.

    This work week has been a tremendous time of grief and loss โ€”staying present with others as I proactively listen and assist them in their grieving process is challenging; in reflection, it does my heart well.

    โ€œAs far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being.โ€ Karl Jung, psychiatrist

    Take care to take care of you. Do those things that comfort your soul. I see you. I love you.

    Intimately worded,

    ~Michelle

    Vulnerability will guide youโ€”you choose. ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    #GoodGrief #Loss #Transitions #HeartWork #RequireMore #Love #InnerWork #Healing #BeGentleWithYourSelf #Growth #FindYourYes #TrustYourProcess #SelfAdvocacy #BelieveBetter #Women #BlackWomen #Coffee #Therapy #MoveMountains #LevelsToThis #EmotionalWellness

  • Safer Waters

    Safer Waters

    Solitude. Replenish. Grateful.

    Iโ€™m moving towards safer waters not out of fear but out of loveโ€ฆfor myself, for others.

    I love my space. I love my love for others. Iโ€™m unlearning all consuming loveโ€”unlearning the thought, that if I control IT there will not be any room for deep hurt. I am learning not to separate how I love to the way I love. I no longer hold back trying to figure out in which way I will be hurt next. Ahhh, Love.๐ŸŒป I still do not know what is the greatest way in sheltering yet Iโ€™m loving this space I have carved. My stitches of quiet time include falling in love with poetry once again. When able add, โ€œThe Shelteringโ€ to your Readersโ€™ List. I have included the link: https://books2read.com/KhayaRonkainen

    I have grown to value time, albeit with grace. Reading a romance novel every now and then reminds me of what love should be, without having my head in the clouds. I enjoyed reading this library find, it was just the right antidote, โ€œThe House on Blueberry Lane.โ€ The author included just enough courage and hope to have me sipping wine, praying for rain with each turned page. Snuggling with Koda is an added #Godperk. ๐Ÿพ

    As I age (with grace) โ€”I do not believe I am lacking patience. I know that I do not like my time wasted, thatโ€™s with every aspect of life: driving, cooking, fellowship and friendship. In driving, I take the most scenic routes, away from the interstate. I am learning to cook healthier with buying strategically not just for convenience and eating well. I have upped my game with culinary knowledge. I am learning to date with care, my SelfCare. I want someone to be my greatest friend, supportive, dependable and trustworthy. I am expecting moreโ€”-without fearing what is next.

    What I know: consistency remains one of the simplest forms of love. Consistency creates stability and with stability comes structure and with structureโ€” compassion. And so with hope imagined Iโ€™ll turn to words, books, note taking, perfect lip glosses, soul-nurturing, and prayersโ€”-all the things that create this currency of living life possible: choosing Me.

    We have every right and reason to shine our lights, to do what is best for us and love our selves with care, truths and all the good things. No longer be afraid of what has happenedโ€”live in hope. I am more mindful of what is to come and this soul of mineโ€”well I will always advocate for itโ€™s navigational heart.

    Intimately Worded,

    Michelle

    Have courage, take heart

    โ€œHe heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.โ€ Psalm 147:3

  • September; traditionally speaking

    In my therapeutic profession, this weekend and new week is an emotional one: Saturday, September 10: World Suicide Preventation Day. Sunday, September 11: Remembrance of 9/11. In my personal life, Monday, September 12: My eldest son’s birthday. This week the local market has #sunflowers for $5.00.

    I’ve learned my hometown has grown a field of sunflowers that one can visit. Sunflowers are one of my favorite flowers. I continue to seek the simplicities of life and I yearn more for my soul than yesterday.

    I am reflective this heavy weekend and how inclusive of celebrating life I try to be. I’m learning that my self-care consists of familiarity, many must-haves and structure. I like it that way. Of course, there is spontatneity which often brings in great joy. It is Sunday morning and I’ve washed my face, brushed my teeth…made up my bed, put on my fuzzy socks and I’m mentally planning my day. I checked my emails and the thought hits me….”I’m always working and my work includes caring for others.”

    My work emails include questions on individual trauma recovery or taking another educational course on trauma. I read, respond if it is a quick answer. I pause and tell myself, prayer time, coffee, outside before it gets hot, do some stretches and yoga. Write and post your blog. I am proud of myself that this is my third Sunday in row, blogging. I smile. I beleive often we’re equipped within to reframe the heaviness, move it around a bit. I tend to think we’re here for reasons bigger than we think, without being aggrogant yet genuine, authentic. I know we’re to love and be loving. I also know we’re to be here for one another in whatever capacity that benefits us—that is not selfish. #BoomerangEffect

    So, I’ll purchase $5.00 sunflowers for my home. Later this week, I’ll anonmously deliver some to a person I know is struggling with how LIfe is coming at them. I’ll continue to be there for my Tribe. I’ll show up time and time again for this woman who’s hair is turning more white than grey yet she still seems to smile back at me in the mirror…somehow different yet the same. #Making Room

    “We must go down to the very foundations of life. For any merely superficial odering of life that leaves its deepest needs unsatisfied is as ineffectual as if no attempt at order had ever been made…”

    ~I Ching/ “The Well” (circa 2500 BC)

    Love yourself just a wee bit more this new season. #Autumn #Change

    Intimately Worded,

    Michelle

    https://www.buymeacoffee.com/IntimatelyWrded