Intimately Worded with Michelle

Category: writersblock

  • The Quiet That Comes After Letting Go

    The Quiet That Comes After Letting Go

    There is a certain kind of quiet that only comes after emotional noise.

    Not the quiet of loneliness.

    Not the quiet of avoidance.

    But the quiet that returns when your spirit has decided it will no longer argue with what it already knows.

    Tonight the house is still.

    My phone is still.

    Even my thoughts feel softer than they did a few weeks ago.

    Healing does not always announce itself loudly. Sometimes it arrives in the smallest ways.

    You notice you laughed at something today.

    You realize your shoulders are no longer clenched.

    You stop replaying conversations that once felt like unfinished business.

    And somewhere in that noticing, you understand something important:

    You survived the moment that once felt unbearable.

    For a while, your heart held tension the way a fist holds onto something it is afraid to drop.

    Questions.

    Hopes.

    Words that were never fully returned.

    But eventually the body grows tired of holding on to pain that has already taught its lesson.

    So the hand opens.

    Not dramatically.

    Not all at once.

    Just enough for peace to slip back in.

    Tonight I am learning that healing is not always about replacing what was lost.

    Sometimes healing is simply the moment when your heart becomes quiet enough to remember who you were before the storm.

    And that woman is still here.

    Still thoughtful.

    Still discerning.

    Still capable of loving deeply.

    Only now she knows something she didn’t before:

    Peace is not something someone else brings into your life.

    Peace is what returns when you stop negotiating with what your spirit already released.

    And when that quiet comes…

    you finally rest again.

    Inner Reflection

    Some endings leave behind a strange kind of silence. At first, it can feel uncomfortable, even heavy. We may reach for distractions or explanations because the stillness feels unfamiliar.

    But sometimes that silence is not emptiness.

    Sometimes it is restoration.

    It is the sacred space where your heart regains its rhythm. Where your thoughts begin to settle. Where your spirit gently reminds you that you are not defined by what ended, but by the strength it took to release it.

    In this moment, if you find yourself in a quiet season, allow it to be what it is.

    You do not have to rush to fill the silence.

    Sometimes peace arrives softly…

    and asks only that you receive it.

    “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

    — Exodus 14:14

    A Gentle Question for Your Heart

    Before you move into the rest of your day, take a quiet moment and ask yourself:

    What has my spirit already released that my mind is still trying to hold on to?

    Healing often begins the moment we stop wrestling with what God has already given us the strength to leave behind.

    Today, allow yourself to rest in the quiet. Trust the stillness, it’s a win. ✨

    Being brave,

    Michelle

    ©️Intimately Worded, Michelle

  • Writer’s Block…obstacle: Self

                       “Fear must not be a greater champion of your dreams than you are.” ~A. MichelleConfident

    I have a tendency to put things off, not necessarily a procrastinator but “I will do it later; “I need to be in the mood,” type of person. My writing desk has everything on it and in it for “my to do later.”  Does any of it include writing? Nooo.  Magazines I promised to read, recipes I will try later, bills and more envelopes of bills, books I need to read, encouragement cards I received paperclip w/their envelopes because I self-promised to write the sender a thank you, later….. yet, I only send a text. Smh/smiling.

    This morning I clean off that desk, I organize, I shred, I empty; I actually trash the unnecessary! I keep the unread Cosmo magazines, lol. Although my sex life is null and void my want to have it is not negated, in addition I think I have forgotten how. (Laughing) Yet, “38 Hot Sex Tricks,” and “Crazy Hot Sex Moves He’ll think about all year long” these article titles caught my eye…there was something about exercise moves for a flat belly.  But let’s be realistic my opportunities of achieving a flat belly are pretty much over. My goal list includes lose back fat and find a sex life (with a monogamous, sane male, within my age range, employed, self-motivated, intelligent, etc.)!  Keeping Cosmo could possibly be a plus, one just never knows.

    Once cleaned and organized, I count how many writing idea books, writing journals I have accumulated. There are six and one completed stage play. I sit back and look at my work.  I should feel proud but I feel a sense of shamefulness. I’ve let myself down…that sweet, innocent, naïve 16 year old girl who was so full of letting her writing lead her, make her, empower her and encourage others is very disappointed in Self. I pause, taking moments to remember her and I begin to smile. I remember Her! Through it all, the momentous, the painful, the good, the bad, the ugly, because of/ in spite of Life…..twenty-nine years later and I can still remember her.

    During moments in our lives we tend to take the backseat on our talents, our gifts. Dating, marriage, children, family becomes our focus. Do to my own fear, I truly held the belief that my ex-husband should have the chance to become stabilized in his career, his wants first. Once he/she is gone, then the focus becomes the children—we want better for them; once again we compromise—push for that non-fulfilling job for stability and financial reasons.  Overcoming is a requirement of life, yet if not adequately carried out it can begin the shift of forgetting Self. Our worlds can be turned upside down when we want more for another than we do for ourselves.

    We are in charge of Self— no one, no want, no sacrifice should cost you Self. So I will continue to do more for me, much more than regretting. Remember, acknowledge, smile and move forward to grasp ahold to what you already know. God just doesn’t dilly out uniqueness for you to shut it down. 🙂

    You are amazing!

    ~A. Michelle

    P.S. I still haven’t read the Cosmopolitan articles. I will do it later. 🙂